1. Uninvited

Uninvited

Like anyone would be
I am flattered by your fascination with me
Like any hot blooded woman
I have simply wanted an object to crave
But you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Must be strangely exciting
To watch the stoic squirm
Must be somewhat heartening
To watch shepard meet shepard
But you're not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

Like any uncharted territory
I must seem greatly intriguing
You speak of my love like
You have experienced like mine before
But this is not allowed
You're uninvited
An unfortunate slight

I don't think you unworthy
I need a moment to deliberate

Narcissism
Diagnostic Criteria
A pervasive pattern of grandiosity (in fantasy or behavior), need for admiration, and lack of empathy, beginning by early adulthood and present in a variety of contexts, as indicated by five (or more) of the following:
1.has a grandiose sense of self-importance (e.g., exaggerates achievements and talents, expects to be recognized as superior without commensurate achievements)
2.is preoccupied with fantasies of unlimited success, power, brilliance, beauty, or ideal love
3.believes that he or she is "special" and unique and can only be understood by, or should associate with, other special or high-status people (or institutions)
4.requires excessive admiration
5.has a sense of entitlement, i.e., unreasonable expectations of especially favorable treatment or automatic compliance with his or her expectations
6.is interpersonally exploitative, i.e., takes advantage of others to achieve his or her own ends
7.lacks empathy: is unwilling to recognize or identify with the feelings and needs of others
8.is often envious of others or believes that others are envious of him or her
9.shows arrogant, haughty behaviors or attitudes

PARA DILI KO KALIMOT...I'M GANA LIST DOWN WHO I AM.
i think i only forget things because i say that i might forget them and because i have a poisonous tongue everything i say happens even if i dont really mean it so if i say i hate you and i hope you'd die in your sleep please beware and pray before you sleep.
1.i hate cats and i sort of hate dogs because of their fluffy beings and their fur coming in my nose and i hate that because it makes me cough and above all it makes me feel as if the fur has entered my mouth ew...
2.i hate ice cream cones especially when it has a dip because i dont know how to eat it and it spills and i get embarassed and i also hate those complicated food rubber like food like taku because it sticks in my teeth and i feel that my saliva would come out at the side of my lips.ew.
3.i also hate manicure especially the pusher thing....ew.ew....its so wer......i hate it because it gives me a crumble in the neck...ew....
4.i had changed myself when i was 15 because of some traumatic incident.i never cried and as my twwin would say; the expression on her face changed from aloof to capable of saying dont cry with a stiff face.
5.i never cried since that time.and whenever i do.it really means something so when i cry because you touch my heart...ow........you you....its either i'm just fooling around or i'm really touch with whatever you have done to me
6.i dont smoke but i often want to taste it and experience the fancy sensation of unhealthy things coming in my lungs.of course i think and think and finally decide not to smoke because i might end up with an asthma attack and it really pisses me off because i couldnt breath and the taste on my throat and tongue is really and ew so No .
7.i often think of the money i've waisted when i eat anything i bought because i'm so inut and then i'd ofetn persuade myself that i cant buy the pleasure of eating the food.of course, the fact that its essential to my living doesnt pass my mind. i often have these feelings..no not often always and i always end up persuaded to eat and thats why i dont loose a pound.
8.i love to stretch and dance. i dont like to play table tennis but because everyone wants me to, i still play and they say i have a big chance of being very good at it when i'd put everything at it but then hell with what they say.i dont love it....then again there are just things you have to handle even if you dont love them like a lot of thing.keeping a shirt for example and saying that someday you might use it even if its dumped in you closet.
9.i'm very undecisive. i can go to a restaurant and want to eat chicken but the chicken reminds me of chapsue and then i suddenly want to eat chapsuy and then if there are no chapsuy in that resto, i'd leave that place and look for one that has chapsue. its the same thing with movies or even things i have to do...what to do first.what first. then i end up staring at the ceiling confused what to do first. but i really do want everything but then you know i cant decide if i have to act on it.like if i want you but then i cant decide if ill go with you, it doesnt mean i dont want you.you know what i mean...
10.well...there are a lot of thing.i still have to recall them...i cant stand being here already. i have short attention span. this will be continued soon.so if you still llike me and consider me your friend after being annoyed of my list of kaartehan. well.you should deal with it. i know you will... i'm actually very persuasive that i'm not maarte most of the time like i say....yeah...tala..baklay t...lingaw man...kaon ta nai bisag pedestrian...ut then i actually hate that. i get persuaded that its ok,sometimes but then when i'm reminded i think and decide decide decide well it becomes a long process of decision.