there was apart of the dream that he and dad had an encounter. i denied him there. it was weird. my dad never avoided me with this things.

we even went to my former job. we ate on a buffet. and then suddenly we had a disagreement.
he became cold and left me with my friends. i even had this situation when he was on a sit and i had a friend behind him so i greetd my friend and passed him intentionaly. then i ask why my friends wore red. they say "its friendship day". and i repeated the phrase with a question then said..."friendship day lagi but dili mi friends anang uban diha". i want?ed him to hear it. and then  he said..."unsa?".

but i knew were gonna work it out coz we were close.it was a weird dream. i had a similar dream ones. but i feel i'v met the person already. of course, after the dream occured...
its so weird.i had to scratch my head to go back to reality, when i woke up. because i thought that i really had a love problem. but i dont. 

the only problem i have is how to erase my boy standards. to realy like someone and not push him when i know he likes me back. and to tell my self that i really do love a person and not the i love the loving alone,. because sometimes i love the part that "i'm loving" and forget that there is a person involved.and its selfish...i know....

so i promise myself that i am going to love someone.and make the person+love. thing. its just the way i am.ven though i am not too bothered. but sometimes it does. and even if it only happens sometimes and that bothering is essential.it hurts to bother a while. and it hurts to think too much about this things. i may as well think of the moon and its positions.but that part belongs to someone elses ways.so i may as well find a favorite "pastry" or compare diffrenet kinds of coffee...or look up the veranda and emulate my life...